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  • My ADHD is Finally Medicated

    I have struggled all my life with undiagnosed ADHD. Part of it is because I’m AFAB, and ADHD tends to present different in people Assigned Female At Birth. Part of it too, was racism. Because I’m Asian, there was this pervasive belief that “Asians don’t get learning disabilities.” Even my own mom would say things…

  • Getting Over the Holidays

    Every holiday season is the same. I start out okay, then slowly slide into a depressive spiral as I’m hit with reminders of the past; most of my traumaversaries are in the holiday season, after all, especially around Christmas. Every year, on medication or raw dogging reality I find that all I can really do…

  • Hope

    I’ve been avoiding talking about politics on my platform because it’s still so small, and I’m still so new, but it can’t be dodged forever. I’m a mixed-race, bisexual, disabled transman. My existence shouldn’t be controversial but it is. It always has been. I’m old enough to remember being called Oriental as a slur. My…

  • Champion of the Dead is Off to Beta Readers and More

    Champion of the Dead is off to beta readers! Huzzah! This is my third round trying to come up with a satisfying sequel. It wasn’t that it was harder than the first, or that the other attempts weren’t good, it was that, well, there was a lot to sort out after the end of Savior…

  • Midnight Musings

    Executive dysfunction is kicking my ass. That and life are really giving it to me. There’s just been so much going on that I haven’t had a chance to catch my breath, and getting any of it done has been a Sisyphean task. It’s been six years now since my life got upended, longer really…