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Mental Illness and Me, part 2

Over the last twenty years I’ve been diagnosed with most everything under the sun at some point. For most of that time the only thing doctors could agree on was that I’m bipolar. I mean, it’s kind of obvious when the first antidepressant I tried right off the bat made me manic for a month.…

August 27, 2021
Chronic Pain part 1

I have psoriatic arthritis, and it’s currently untreated. It means that I’m in constant pain. I medicate my pain with cannabis, and for the most part it helps, but what I need (and what I don’t have access to) is an immunosuppressant. The inflammation that causes my skin to heal so fast it flakes off…

August 20, 2021
Schedules and How They Work for Me

9:00 am: Wake up, make coffee for breakfast 9:05 am-10:00 am: Pet Skye, put Skye down, try to get words done, rinse repeat 10:01-10:20: write 10:21-11: pet and wrangle Beerus (much like Skye) 11:00 am-1:00 pm: words Lunch Afternoon reading or school stuff or time for other projects Dinner Television (currently Star Trek Deep Space 9) School maybe, other projects maybe More words …

August 13, 2021
Mental Illness and Me, part 1

I’m bipolar. With that comes both therapy and medication. Therapy helps sort out my headspace and keeps tabs on where I am at any given moment, but medication is what really helps. Therapy is good for coping skills, for sounding off when frustrated, for validation and a kick in the pants when I’m being my…

August 6, 2021
Outlines, yay or nay?

Do I use outlines? Certainly. But I’m relatively new to them. I finished my first book without one, which is probably part of why it took eight years to finish. And it still needs work, being a first novel and all, so it’s currently shelved while I work on other projects. For my second one,…

July 30, 2021
Dungeons and Dragons and Pathfinder

I suppose it’s natural for a fantasy author to be into table top role playing games. I mean, it’s an interactive story. The Game Master is sort of the narrator, and the players the characters, right? And I’ve been playing a not insignificant amount of time. I started playing Dungeons and Dragons when Second Edition…

July 23, 2021
Notebooks

I love notebooks, as well as pens. I love the tactile sensation of the pen gliding over paper, of the little scratch as I make my mark on the pages. I love the smell of the paper and the hint of ink, and it always brings a smile to my face when I finish with…

July 16, 2021
Inspiration

As an author who writes primarily genre works, it’s probably no surprise that I’m a huge nerd. I grew up watching Star Trek: TOS, Dr. Who (Tom Baker was my favorite Doctor in childhood), playing video games, and watching anime. My dad started me out by introducing me, but I quickly developed other tastes. Where…

July 9, 2021
Why I tell stories

You probably want to know why I write and how I got started, right? Well, my parents are avid readers, and they did their best to share their love of reading with me. They read to me every night for years. We didn’t have a lot of money growing up, but there was always a…

July 2, 2021
Welcome to my Headspace

I’m J. Pagaduan, and this is my blog! I’m an author, and I’ve been writing in some capacity my whole life. It wasn’t until high school that I really got serious about it. Life being what it is I’m only now getting my life sorted enough to get things published, but that’s part of life.…

June 24, 2021